Life Update~

I have always been open about my feelings to my friends and sometimes family, but I never thought I would have a blog and talk about my feelings to everybody. I took it upon myself to start this blog under the intentions of sharing my experience of living in another country, and because I am no longer living in another country, I had to think about something else I am interested in that I can blog about. Thats when I thought about mental health, and what it means to me. I studied psychology in college, and I have taken many classes over the human mind. I am also familiar with mental health from personal experience. SO- I am going to do some research, and hopefully be able to help some people out regarding mental health. The past few months have been difficult, but also rewarding. I have been able to find out things about myself that I didn’t know, and also I am trying to remember who I was when I was happy. 

I have been very open about my marriage, and what happened, and there are days where I am okay about it, and where I really do understand that better things are waiting for me. But there are also days when I question what I did wrong, and how I can fix myself so that nobody will leave me again. I know these are normal thoughts and feelings, but when it is you thinking them, it hits harder than them just being “normal” feelings. It has definitely been a rollercoaster for me, but I am finally seeing why everything happened, and that I am not in control of how somebody else feels. We are only in control of our feelings, and that is what makes everybody so unique in the way we deal with major life changes. 

I know I have been silent, however, I really have been focusing on my mental health. I still plan on writing, however, I am just going at my own pace with everything. Life is very different for me than when I initially started this blog. But, I know that I am doing better, and that time really is helping with everything. 

So here’s a question I was asked the other day, and I had to really think about it. Everybody has a different view on what happiness means. For me, I believe I am happy when I am surrounded by the people I love, and who love me. So, with that being said, when was the last time you were happy? I hope you are able to think of a response that was recent, and if you can’t, find something to do that makes you happy!